The Escape?

There are certain things like love, crush, hatred, squabbles, and some childhood incidents that we tend forget in the course of time. But there are certain things that eventually make us remember from certain incidents or people connected to it or sometimes even certain kind of smell (it might sound weird but some things do come up that way). It’s something that made me remember about an incident when I was going through my facebook newsfeed today.

 This happened a long time back, around 13 years when I was in 4^th grade. There used to be a girl whom I liked, I wouldn’t say love because I believe love is a feeling that I will never understand until I lose it. I might call it a crush. In any case I wouldn’t have known the difference between both; movies taught me the phrase ‘I love you’ way before hormones started messing up with my mind. Alright I will start with the story now, I was kind of attracted to this girl and situations were favorable for me or I grabbed them by my side( I can’t remember), I finally found a place in the class to sit next to her. So naturally we started becoming good friends. And hey, don’t judge my actions; it is just that guys somehow find ways to get acquainted with the girls they like, people won’t notice it sometimes and the ones that look obvious are actually amateur ones who are still in the process of learning ;-) In my case, no one ever suspected me (I cannot boast about my ‘girl acquainting’ prowess ;-)).

Days went by and I even visited her house for getting some homework questions (oh those horrible days! I never got rid of assignments till this day).  Now that I knew where she lived, I started roaming around her neighborhood whenever I had the chance to slip out of my house. It was something that every fool did when he had nothing to do. Now that I am writing this, I ought to mention something else. There was this guy in my class who liked this girl and we both never actually liked each other when we were kids. Not because of this girl, it is just that we both had very opposite characters that we never got along well, I suppose we never even had a proper conversation. Who knows, maybe I liked this girl just because this guy had a crush on her? (so villainous :-D). Okay I could imagine some writhing faces not able to put up with my drivel, yet I am unable spare the relevant details that strikes my mind when I am writing this. So getting back to the nub of the story, my incomprehensible fever of crush went up to such a level that I was chanting ‘I love X’(X is supposed to be that girl) like a mantra. I have heard some people say that fear is something that humans have to ‘learn’, and same goes with the tamil proverb ‘iLam kandru bayam ariyadhu’. It was partly true in my case; I had guts to go up to the front door of her house chanting that mantra over and over in my mind. I was even about to knock the door, then I suddenly came out of the trance and I stood there hesitating. I realized someone from inside saw me standing near the door and was about to open it. There are few things that are reflexive and I bet the instance of me, fleeing away from that place might be apt. I never thought of running away, I ran before I even knocked the door and I could never figure out the reason. The most funniest part was, when I was half way across the street, I heard the girl shouting out my name so loud and I never stopped.

 This incident came to my mind after so long that I even suspected it really happened or just a figment of my imagination. And then I assured myself that, it cannot be imagination; such a girl exists in my friend list and this incident hit my mind as soon as I saw her profile. Sometimes I feel that I discover things rather than making them up, every existing thing and feelings that I had in my childhood has a story behind it, and I vaguely remember them either through dreams or some pictures or smell as I said before.

 The irony of this incident is that, she never asked me the reason behind the mysterious behavior and at the same time I lost the ‘whatever’ feeling I had for her. Coming to think of it, life would have been way more awesome if I were to forget my feelings like that; I guess it would be the same for everyone.

How I learnt the word Propose… ;)

Guys, this is little similar to the post I made before but there is something different here… I am just telling you an incident that reminds me of the word “propose”…. ;)  Funny incident of course that sprung up to my mind all of a sudden after eight years… :)  I can read what u have in your mind right now… This is not my complete love story but you can add it to one of my idiotic infatuation stories. ;)  This is one extremely funny incident where I didn’t know what to answer to a girl at a certain situation.

Okay I am starting my story, I was always a guy who easily fell for girls in my school days (It was not the same in college ;) ). The list of girls I had crush, in my school days were exorbitant or maybe outrageous… :P.  But I was kind of serious with a girl (I mean a little longer than others.. ;) ) in my ninth standard.  We both were good friends and she used to come to my home for tuitions (my mom took tuitions of maths). Somehow I felt the arrow of the cupid from her eyes( at that time… :P as it’s a common symptom of love after all) and also it was mutual I suppose, as she was the only person who used to laugh for all my worthless jokes in classes( :P) then she used to sit beside me in classes.. ;) Okay let me get to the story, there was guy who studied with us whose name was Ram(made up name as he is still my friend.. :P). He also loved this girl and this girl never liked him and constantly complained about this guy to ME(:P). On a lovely, romantic rainy night, after the tuitions were over, I was standing near my flat's entrance. She walked slowly and came close me and poured the unfathomable three words into my ears. Her eyes were wide open with terror after hearing my reply. I think she almost got fed up with the innocent kid Bragi… :P  Can u guess what the three words were??

It was “Ram PROPOSED me!!!!!”… :P and My reply was “Yeah let him propose what’s wrong in that???” with a perplexed look( cos I never knew the meaning of the word propose… :P). Her next reply was “Idiot!! (a look of ‘ u r good for nothing’.. :P)  He told me ‘I love you’ ”. I was stumbled for a moment but before I came back to reality the matter was taken to some other person who is off the blog for now .. :P

 I need to say, this girl’s another character, she used to fight and shout like fish vendor in moor market(its derogatory but still I need to give u ppl a good picture in mind). She was never compromising during arguments, simply speaking I can put it in one tamil word “Bajaree”… :P. She taught me a valuable lesson about girls.. “Girls are the most vicious beings that god had ever created.”  Simply explaining my philosophy “They are non-violent terrorists.. :P ”.

Btw this idiotic infatuation of mine took a long journey of two years, that is, till I completed my tenth grade of schooling. But still I couldn’t feel the cupid’s arrow working on her side after this incident… :o :P :D Now I really burst out of laughter when I think of this incident behind the word PROPOSE. Shit I never knew there was such a usage for that word until my ninth standard.. :P

There is another funniest thing about this girl. My mom found out this affair after two years, and there was a five minutes long lecture with harsh and embarrassing words thrown over me… :P The saddest thing was I never proposed her and I was never behind her after tenth and she became suspicious for no reason. Finally I was pulled into a room on the eve of joyful diwali and advices droned on for five minutes continuously without even allowing a poor soul to open its mouth.. :P Ha ha ha ha.. :D That was when I really experienced the Einstein’s Theory of relativity, five minutes of droning advice from mom is equivalent to five years with a side effect of head spinning and partial insomnia… :P  

Reminiscing Words

I have the strangest way of remembering certain words. I start with the regretful reminiscence of the word 'Tigress' followed by two of my funniest incidents. Whenever I come across this word the first thing that flashes my mind is getting kicked out of the bench by a massive, masculine and humongous woman who taught us English in the 5th grade. Trust me I can never forget her in my life. Oh god!! one of my classmate's fingers were bleeding because of her double wooden scale reinforced with steel treatment. Let me elucidate the incident, one friday(i even remember the day) after class test we were discussing the answers. We were all asked to answer one question each and unfortunately(fortune never favors me,even in childhood) my turn was to tell the feminine gender for tiger, the only question I didnt answer in the test.. :P I remember stammering and swallowing the saliva to answer, and the next thing I realized was, me lying on the floor in between the benches... :P Such a wicked woman u see.... :P Even now tigress gives me a trip kuth... ;)

There is another word that reminds me the most funniest incident with funniest staffs I ever had.'Vampire' . Well, in order to explain this I need to introduce a person, a cousin of mine who was very much interested in zoology and  highly skilled in cooking up stories about mythical creatures that he used to watch in movies. There is one key fact that should be noted here "I saw very little English movies till I joined college". So I was kind of naive and used to believe everything he says. One particular day, he told me about vampire bats and his imaginary place where they inhabit(South America :P). This piece of information struck my mind when I was sitting in the Geography class in my 6th grade. Labai mama (as we used to call him), started teaching a chapter about South America. It was half way through the class (when he was teaching about farmers of south america), I suddenly raised my hands. I called the attention of all my drowsy companions and labai mama was eagerly waiting for my question. And my question was "Sir!!Wont the vampire bats disturb them(farmers of south america)?" :P :P. The whole class burst out in laughter and this man asked me to repeat the question twice unable to understand my question, he felt so embarrassed for encouraging an unwarranted distraction of his so called geography class(ppl he used to sit and talk about his wife n children in class, he knew nothing in geography). Whatever be it, whenever I come across the word vampire the 1st thing that strikes my mind is this incident.;)

'Mens Beauty Parlor' Back in my 8th grade, there were very little hair saloons in my area bearing the name Mens Beauty Parlor(now its so common. I still cant find any difference between a saloon, barbershop and Men's beauty parlor.... :P). So there was one very big, air conditioned, mens beauty parlor called Oberoi. I always had an urge to get into that place and do my haircut. Finally my curiousness was so high that I went to that saloon. It was so comfortable inside and the barber was such an affable person until it was time to pay the bill... :P I used take only Rs. 25 for haircut and as I said before, I randomly got into that place. So all I had was 25 but I had to give him 60 rupees. Ha Ha Ha... when he asked me 60, I gave him 25 and told him "idho veedu pakathula dhan na.. naan ippo kondu vandhudren..(I live in the nearby house.. I ll bring it asap)" I never turned back or waited for his reply.. I jumped into the cycle and started riding to my home as fast as I can. ... ;) :P. I never walked through that street for almost an year after that... :P

There is always sweet and bitter memories behind every word we had learned or every place we have lived in. Whenever I come across the word 'love' I get reminded of my 1st love(ofcourse lover :)) .. Even though I moved on and there is no such feeling anymore, deep inside, at some nook of the brain our bonds with a word is carved(as scientists say whenever brain stores information, there is an extra folding added to it.. :P) and it springs back to life whenever we come across such beautiful and everlasting words that brings ephemeral bliss in our life.   

Trip Kuth Tamil valaipadhivu... :P

இதோ போதையில் நான் எழுதும் முதல் தமிழ் வலைபதிவு... எதை பற்றி எழுதுவது என்று தெரியாமல் திணறுகிறேன்.. கரண்ட் அப்பைர்ஸ் பத்தி கமெண்ட் அடிக்கலாம் ந newspaper படிச்சு ரொம்ப நாள் அஆச்சு so ஒன்னு சொல்ல முடியாது .. சேரி cricket பத்தி பேசலாம் ந அந்த கேம் எனக்கு பிடிகாது.. சேரி எத பத்தி தன் பேசலாம்னு யோசிக்கும் போது எனக்கு அருமையான ஒரு யோசனை வந்துச்சு ..

அப்படி என்ன யோசனைனா, என்னோட college ah திட்டலாம்னு தான்... இபோ என்ன சொன்னேன்?? college?? ஐயோ சாரி அது தான் ரெண்டு வருஷம் முன்னாடி university ஆகிடுச்சே!! அட போங்கபா .. ஆங்கிலத்துல செரியவே பேரு வைக்க மாட்டேன்கரங்க..."பல்கலைக்கழகம்" எவளோ பொருத்தமான பெயர்?? புரியல?? பல்களை (tooth)கழறும் கழகம்... ;) மொக்கைய அட்ஜஸ்ட் பண்ணிகொங்க.. ;) சேரி இத இன்னும் எப்படி apt ஆக்கலாம்?? சேரி அதா ராமதாஸ் பாதிகுவரு... நான் இப்போ மேட்டர்கு வரேன்...

ஐயோ மேட்டர்எ மறந்துட்டேன்... i ll continue later... :P

P.S: ஏதோ எழுதனமேனு எழுதினேன்.. இதுக்கு மேல மொக்க போடா விரும்பல... ;D

Some Random Thought... ;)

Well I am writing this blog with insane mind, a mind which is in command of the supreme mother nature Gaia…  I used to think intoxicating is a sin, as people say our body is temple of lord. Well but if the so called lord doesn’t show his effervescent and divine face to all the people then I have no other option than to bring god out of the temple and make him wander outside saying “hi dude!! This place is infernal, why don’t I change it a bit… ;)”. Philanthropic deed in going high u know…  I personally feel that going high is act of divining oneself so precisely and realizing the feats that a person is capable of.

Cool!! I am bringing something out of nothing… Thoughts are blank but my fingers are typing.. Awesome feeling!!! Sorry I am rambling away from the topic I started with. The above stated philosophy has one main assumption. If it’s false then my philosophy would be a fiasco. It is stated under the assumption that god exist. Well I took Bhagavat Gita as example and stated that philosophy. Well I continue with this assumption as I personally feel that there is no specific god but there is a hierarchy that is being followed in this universe and we are all persuaded by our respective societies to put up with it. There are some people who became mad by questioning these traditions and customs (jealousy u know, they want to become king without being a warrior, they think it’s like Indian politics). Politics is a trip kuth so put it aside. Well it’s all, the way u question them. If u want to invent a conspiracy in the traditions then u fall on the wrong side. Some luckily fell into the right side and guided their successors. It’s better I get into the nub before I forgot what I was about to say. Here it is, in veda, well I accidentally bumped into this piece of information when I was researching on vedic astrology, whatever, there are 4 types of feelings or deeds that a person has to do or cross when he born on this earth. Artha, Kama, moksha and dharma. Now I can think what u think  .I can say the only word u would have recognized here would be kama(if u don’t know Sanskrit). Dharma “finding the meaning of life”. Kama fulfilling all the desires of life. Moksha eternity. So one cannot attain eternity without getting bored of the other deeds. Some may even deride this by claiming this to an act of justifying my deeds, for them I show my condolences for locking up their mind, for betraying their inner voice. Don’t ask me if I have one, I merged it with my voice… :P

If god doesn’t exist then there is another philosophy to advocate the intoxicating stuff u know… this should be read only by atheists:

U don’t believe in god, and if someone asks y, u say it’s because u believe in urself. To say the truth, that’s a very inspiring one but analyzing this statement with deep insight I feel that u people are bloody arrogant and stubborn ones thinking that u r the one who is manipulating everything that happens around u. U have a natural gift of being high always. U are living in an illusionary world, thinking that what u do is what u wanted to do and there is no reason behind it. Oh sorry I wanted to say some other thing, now I m denouncing atheists, wish the chief minister doesn’t read this… ;) Anyway he doesn’t know English…. ;)

Well what I am finally trying to tell is that, Smoke weeds… Go High… Feel the inner voice…

P.S: Inner voice may lead u into trouble sometimes when u r high, cos even its high when u r high.. ha ha ha ha… :D I msgd a person when I was high and told a truth. So beware of inner voice… :P

என் முதல் கவிதை

பிழைகளிலிருந்து பிழைத்து,

பிறர் புறிந்த பிழைகளை பறையடித்து,

புதியதொரு பிழை படைபவன் தான் மனிதனோ!!!

காதல் எனும் பிழையால் பிறந்து,அதில் படர்ந்து,

'காதல் பொய்' என்ற மெய் மொழியை பழித்து,

பின் ஒரு பேதையின் கடைகண் பார்வையால்

பிணைக்க படுபவன் தான் மனிதனோ!!!

அப்பிணைக் கைதிகளில் நானும் ஒருவனோ!!!

பரம்பொருளே!!! நானும் உன் பிழைகளில் பிறந்த பிறவியோ......